Monday, May 20, 2013

5 years next Sunday

I thought I would drop in a quick post. We will be celebrating our 5th Wedding Anniversary this coming Sunday. I have been trying to not think about it and was having a sense of peace. Today morning, I woke up and realized I am on CD 26 and that means AF will start in a few days. Well, I know this 5th anniversary will be hard and that it will get better over the years but I had never imagined that we would reach this milestone and still not have a child here on earth.

I am really praying and hoping that I can really enjoy next Sunday with DH. I just want to experience complete peace amidst suffering. I want to trust Jesus and cling onto him with all my being. Please say a prayer for us that we will be thankful to God however difficult this cross of IF seems. I love my hubby so much and I just don't want to appear crushed and broken-hearted. I am so thankful for this cross. It has strengthened our marriage in ways I could never have imagined. I only wish that the pain would stop at least for a while. Jesus, I trust in you. I have lot to offer up for all of you these coming days.