Getting Back on Track

Today is CD 14 and I need to vent. I need to get back on track with my medications and diet. I have gained 5-6 lbs after my 6-week vacation and I am not happy about it. I need to get back on my Low Carb and Anti-Inflammatory Diet. Before I left for vacation, I thought I could stick on to my diet but it didn't work. I ate red-meat most of the days and had tea/coffee. Not to forget how much sugar, gluten and processed junk I ate. All forbidden on the Anti-Inflammatory Diet! Well, I know it's difficult to be on a diet when you are are not cooking but on my part, I should have at least tried. The wedding and festivities didn't help either. How could you say "no" to all the lovely food right in front of you?

What's worse is that I have become lazy. I haven't charted in a long time. I used to chart my temps regularly but I became lazy and it's been a long time since I took my BBT. I also haven't been using Progesterone Suppositories every cycle. In fact, I don't even remember the last time I took Progesterone. I am supposed to be taking 300mgs from P+3 to P+12 every cycle. Instead, I conveniently forget it at bedtime and I am lucky if I have taken it once or twice a cycle. Not good! I am unhappy and I know I need to get back on routine. Progesterone is vital and I need to be extra cautious since I already had an ectopic in the past.

The only meds I took while on vacation were Metformin and Armour Thyroid. I need to get back on track with my Vitamins, Baby Aspirin, Mucinex, Fish Oil and other stuff. Heck, I haven't even done one cycle on Dr KK's treatment protocol of Lovenox & Prednisone. And I don't know why I lost motivation. Maybe because it feels a long time since I fell pregnant the last time.

I need to set up reminders for my meds and setup appointments with my doctors. I need to eat clean and stay on my Anti-Inflammatory Diet. I need to exercise and lose another 10-15 lbs. I need to do everything I can so that my body can sustain a pregnancy. Please pray for me that I don't procrastinate things. Blessed Virgin Mary and all the saints, please help me.

2013 Updates

I am back after a long vacation. It feels like ages since I have blogged.

2013 began with a bang. By God's grace, my sister got married on the 2nd of Jan. DH's leave got approved and he was able to make it for the wedding. Thanks to my prayer buddy who prayed so much for us. We had so much fun just being with our families and I finally got to meet my adorable nephew. He is no longer a baby but a ten month old toddler. My emotions were all over the place every time I held him. Joy and Pain at the same time!

We were given the green light to TTC just before I left for vacation. I was so hopeful for last cycle since it was the first TTC Cycle after completing Biaxin. However, AF arrived and I just had 2 days of light bleeding. So most likely I didn't ovulate last cycle and hence the light AF. Of course, I had to take a HPT just to confirm and it left me all the more angry.

I am guessing I am having issues with ovulation. Heck, I wish my ovaries would do their job. I badly want to try Clomid. It's been more than a year since I tried Clomid and maybe that's what will help my body. It's so hard to be hopeful. I can feel my clock ticking and I need to get aggressive with treatments. The surgery was my last straw and I don't know what more is left.

Last week, I crossed over to my thirties. It was an emotional day and I was feeling angry with God. Thankfully, we were able to make it for Latin Mass and Confession in the morning. I felt so much better getting out of the confessional.

Our 5th wedding anniversary is approaching in a few months and I feel so overwhelmed. I am having a hard time accepting the fact that we are still a family of two but I am even scared to tell this - I am getting used to my life as two. I have been trying to carve a niche for myself because I know I will need to surrender to God's Will one day or the other.

My Patron Saints for 2013 are St. Gianna and St. Catherine of Sienna. I am begging and pleading them for a miracle in 2013.