Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Thank You

Now that August is coming to an end, I would like to thank each one of you for praying for me this month. I have no words to express how much your prayers have helped me this month.

No, we have not conceived as this was a Break Cycle for us but far better things have happened on the spiritual front. We decided to take a break from ovulatory drugs and charting this month as we were going on a vacation. I didn't feel bad about taking a break cycle instead it was liberating. We went away on a Cruise the second week of August and had a wonderful time. After the vacation I ended up with a Bad Sinus infection and took antibiotics. So my cycle was kind of messed up. I had Fertile CM for several days. It must have been the Amoxicillin I took. I have never seen so much CM in my life. I don't know if my body was trying badly to ovulate or if it was the antibiotic, I had continuous mucus for more than 10 days. It's CD 30 and am still waiting for AF to arrive or I think I will have to start Progesterone.

On the spiritual front, I don't know why but the Holy Spirit had been nudging me to make a General Confession. As usual, I had all kinds of anxiety about making a General Confession even though I frequent the Sacrament of Penance bi-weekly or monthly. Thanks to all your prayers, I was able to do it and have felt so much peace ever since. It was such a humbling experience. If you haven't had a general confession in a while, I urge you to do it. It feels so good to come out the confessional with a light heart.

God hasn't promised us happiness in this life but a life of suffering can help us reach heaven. It makes so much sense to me. I only pray that God gives me the graces needed to handle this suffering well.

On a different note, after my most recent miscarriage, I tried focusing on diet and exercise to keep my mind busy. I even tried eating grain-free & paleo for a while but it didn't last. I have serious commitment issues when it comes to diet. I cannot seem to do a diet for more than 2 weeks. I can't even remember the number of times I have started different diets like Whole 30, Paleo and so on only to stop it after a few days. How do you girls do it? I need some help in this area. I need to stay focused but I don't know how. My goal is to lose 15 lbs if it means becoming closer to a healthier me and maybe an increased chance for a healthy pregnancy. I lost 15-20 lbs last year but I have a hit a plateau and the weight doesn't seem to nudge. I have started working out at home so that I can't make excuses for not hitting the gym. I have been hooked onto Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds program. It makes me sweat so much and feels better than walking on the treadmill for an hour. It's gentle on my knees and I don't have to worry about hurting my back. I know I have to be patient but I wish I could get instant results. If only I could lose the flab around my belly and get the Insulin Resistance under control without drugs, I would be so happy!

Looking forward for the next Adopt-a-Blogger!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Five Years Ago on This Day

We lost our first Child - Bernadette Mary. I had an emergency surgery to remove my ruptured fallopian tube. God showed his mercy on me and spared my life when I was not in a state of grace. Five years later, I have learnt a lot about my faith and I know how important it is to be in a state of grace without any taint of mortal sin on your soul. Monthly and Weekly Confessions don't make me weary any more. Deo Gratias!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Adopt a Blogger - August

Wow! I have been selected as the blogger for this month's "Adopt A Blogger". I feel so blessed. Thank you Lord and thank you for all your prayers!

I had to take a break from Blogs and FB. It was overwhelming me!!! I was spending at least 1 hour daily which means wasting 7 hours a week doing pretty much nothing. Almost a full working day when I could have prayed or attended daily Mass or done something useful! Well very randomly, I logged into FB today and that's when I realized that I was going to be prayed for this entire month. Thank you once again!

If you are new to my blog, you can read more about us and our TTC journey here. DH and I have been married for 5 years. We have had seven pregnancy losses - 1 ectopic and the rest were all early miscarriages. We have been doing both NaPro and Reproductive Immunology treatments. Thanks to all the blogs which helped us find more about NaPro and Dr. KK. In fact, I found my CrMS practitioner through Catholic IF Blogs. God has been guiding us and helped us pursue treatments without going against Church teachings.

Suffering has brought us closer to God in many ways. We were Cradle Catholics but we didn't live our lives as good Catholics for a long time. Over the last five years, our hearts have changed and the graces have flowed abundantly. We no longer fear Suffering. Instead, we know it is the path to Heaven. God has blessed our marriage abundantly. Our desire is to raise children here on earth for God. I so often try to imagine what it would be like to have a large family. However, we pray for peace and joy if that is not what God wills. Here are a few book recommendations for all those going through Suffering :

We will be continuing treatments for a while before we look into adoption or move on. Thank you once again! I already feel so much peace. God Bless you!