Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Thank You

Now that August is coming to an end, I would like to thank each one of you for praying for me this month. I have no words to express how much your prayers have helped me this month.

No, we have not conceived as this was a Break Cycle for us but far better things have happened on the spiritual front. We decided to take a break from ovulatory drugs and charting this month as we were going on a vacation. I didn't feel bad about taking a break cycle instead it was liberating. We went away on a Cruise the second week of August and had a wonderful time. After the vacation I ended up with a Bad Sinus infection and took antibiotics. So my cycle was kind of messed up. I had Fertile CM for several days. It must have been the Amoxicillin I took. I have never seen so much CM in my life. I don't know if my body was trying badly to ovulate or if it was the antibiotic, I had continuous mucus for more than 10 days. It's CD 30 and am still waiting for AF to arrive or I think I will have to start Progesterone.

On the spiritual front, I don't know why but the Holy Spirit had been nudging me to make a General Confession. As usual, I had all kinds of anxiety about making a General Confession even though I frequent the Sacrament of Penance bi-weekly or monthly. Thanks to all your prayers, I was able to do it and have felt so much peace ever since. It was such a humbling experience. If you haven't had a general confession in a while, I urge you to do it. It feels so good to come out the confessional with a light heart.

God hasn't promised us happiness in this life but a life of suffering can help us reach heaven. It makes so much sense to me. I only pray that God gives me the graces needed to handle this suffering well.

On a different note, after my most recent miscarriage, I tried focusing on diet and exercise to keep my mind busy. I even tried eating grain-free & paleo for a while but it didn't last. I have serious commitment issues when it comes to diet. I cannot seem to do a diet for more than 2 weeks. I can't even remember the number of times I have started different diets like Whole 30, Paleo and so on only to stop it after a few days. How do you girls do it? I need some help in this area. I need to stay focused but I don't know how. My goal is to lose 15 lbs if it means becoming closer to a healthier me and maybe an increased chance for a healthy pregnancy. I lost 15-20 lbs last year but I have a hit a plateau and the weight doesn't seem to nudge. I have started working out at home so that I can't make excuses for not hitting the gym. I have been hooked onto Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds program. It makes me sweat so much and feels better than walking on the treadmill for an hour. It's gentle on my knees and I don't have to worry about hurting my back. I know I have to be patient but I wish I could get instant results. If only I could lose the flab around my belly and get the Insulin Resistance under control without drugs, I would be so happy!

Looking forward for the next Adopt-a-Blogger!