Wednesday, February 6, 2013

2013 Updates

I am back after a long vacation. It feels like ages since I have blogged.

2013 began with a bang. By God's grace, my sister got married on the 2nd of Jan. DH's leave got approved and he was able to make it for the wedding. Thanks to my prayer buddy who prayed so much for us. We had so much fun just being with our families and I finally got to meet my adorable nephew. He is no longer a baby but a ten month old toddler. My emotions were all over the place every time I held him. Joy and Pain at the same time!

We were given the green light to TTC just before I left for vacation. I was so hopeful for last cycle since it was the first TTC Cycle after completing Biaxin. However, AF arrived and I just had 2 days of light bleeding. So most likely I didn't ovulate last cycle and hence the light AF. Of course, I had to take a HPT just to confirm and it left me all the more angry.

I am guessing I am having issues with ovulation. Heck, I wish my ovaries would do their job. I badly want to try Clomid. It's been more than a year since I tried Clomid and maybe that's what will help my body. It's so hard to be hopeful. I can feel my clock ticking and I need to get aggressive with treatments. The surgery was my last straw and I don't know what more is left.

Last week, I crossed over to my thirties. It was an emotional day and I was feeling angry with God. Thankfully, we were able to make it for Latin Mass and Confession in the morning. I felt so much better getting out of the confessional.

Our 5th wedding anniversary is approaching in a few months and I feel so overwhelmed. I am having a hard time accepting the fact that we are still a family of two but I am even scared to tell this - I am getting used to my life as two. I have been trying to carve a niche for myself because I know I will need to surrender to God's Will one day or the other.

My Patron Saints for 2013 are St. Gianna and St. Catherine of Sienna. I am begging and pleading them for a miracle in 2013.

7 comments:

  1. Welcome back! Good to hear from you. You're on my mind often. So glad you had a nice trip for your sister's wedding.

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  2. Praying for you. St. Gianna - a great patron Saint! :)

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  3. Glad your sister was able to get married and your DH was there too.

    As always, praying for you!

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  4. Two amazing intercessors for you this year!!! I have not stopped praying for you and will continue to pray for treatments to work. It is hard to cross that 30 mark and 5 year anniversary.

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  5. I'm getting used to being a family of two also...you're not alone in that.

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