Oh Blood Sugar!

Did I tell you how I failed the one hour glucose test at my 16 weeks appt.? My NaPro doctor is intelligent! She figured with my Insulin Resistance and after being on Prednisone for 3 months, my
Blood sugar levels would be high. Well it was true! I tested myself at home four times every day and the levels were high if I ate too many carbs. I have Gestational Diabetes and so I have begun appts at the Diabetic Clinic.

The good thing is that I have been eating much better than how I used to. Less carbs and plenty of protein. The first three months I loaded myself with Rice, Pasta and the occasional sweet treats. It wasn't doing any good to my body and my weight increased rapidly. Now that I am following their diet, my sugar levels are in control which means I cannot indulge in food. No more sugar in my milk! No more fruit juices! I am surprised that I have been able to give up these habits. I couldn't give up sugar on the anti-inflammatory diet but now I can give it up for my baby. I just hope that I don't have to do insulin shots along the road as glucose levels tend to shoot around week 24.

The last few weeks, I was having so much anxiety that the baby wasn't moving. We heard our sweet one's heartbeat last week and it was such a relief. My dr. assured me it was normal not to feel movement until 20-22 weeks. A sweet blogger is sending me her home doppler which should be a huge relief.

Now the most exciting part. We are having our big ultrasound on Monday! Just 2 more days until we get to see our little one. I will be 19 weeks on Monday. Wow! I cannot believe it. The Lord has brought us so far when we don't deserve anything. Praying that everything turns out well on Monday! I am so excited but can't help being a little nervous. We had our last ultrasound at 13 weeks. So it's going to be 2 months since we saw our baby. We love you so much and can't wait to see you.

I have been praying for all of you specially for all of you who are waiting. May our Lord comfort you and fill you with his peace.

Fears & Worries

I know I haven't blogged much about my fears and worries during this pregnancy. I am so thankful to God for this beautiful gift. I am so unworthy and will never understand God's ways. This pregnancy hasn't been all that easy but we are so grateful to God for giving us the graces we need.

The first few weeks were spent in lots of tears when I had bleeding and was told that I was at high risk for miscarriage because of a SCH. God helped us miraculously and at each ultrasound, we saw a growing baby with a strong heartbeat. By 10 weeks, I no longer had any bleeding.

Then at 13 weeks, I fell sick with the Flu. I was worried that the flu would hurt my baby's health. Thankfully, we survived the 3 long weeks of illness. There were days I wish I wasn't sick but then I knew it was again God who was in control and not me.

And on Christmas eve, I had abdominal cramps and lower backache. It was enough to fill us all with fear. I almost made up my mind to go to the ER. Thankfully, the cramps went away by Christmas day.    

The last few days I started worrying that my baby wasn't moving. I have felt a few twitches a few times from around 13 weeks. I really don't know if these twitches are actually the baby moving or something else like the uterus expanding. I was in tears today morning because of anxiety even though I knew it was too early to feel the baby's movement at 16 weeks. I tried praying and offering up my anxiety. I felt a little better after that. I need to wait till next Friday's appointment. I am a bundle of nerves and definitely need prayers.

Each day is a miracle but I am living in perpetual fear. I trust Jesus but how I wish we would get to meet our little one and bring him/her to the baptismal font. Oh Jesus, have mercy on us. I pray that we would get to baptize our baby and raise our child here for God 's kingdom. God 's will be done because in his infinite wisdom he knows what's best.