Saturday, February 18, 2012

I am back and a Miracle

I am back after a wonderful trip to India. The vacation was truly healing for me. It was more like a pilgrimage. I visited so many shrines in a month and shed countless tears as I poured my heart out to the Lord. I feel greatly blessed to have visited the tombs of two saints - St. Thomas the Apostle and St. Alphonsa. I experienced so much peace during my vacation and I knew God would bless us with a child but we would have to wait patiently for his time. My family supported us like a rock and I thank God for my parents. They have prayed so much for us.

On the fertility front, I was expecting a long anovulatory cycle due to stress. I had continuous mucus discharge most of the days and I wasn't charting. I never identified my Peak Day and so I didn't use Progesterone. We never avoided but we weren't trying actively. I never got a period after my miscarriage cycle on December 30th. It had been nearly 50 days since my last period. At this point, I began getting worried. Even if I hadn't ovulated, I should have had some breakthrough bleeding.

On the day of my return journey, I had some light pinkish bleeding. I was sure AF was going to arrive. I dreaded 24+ hours of flight journey on CD1. I had light spotting all throughout the journey. I reached home on Thursday night. I continued to have light red bleeding but it stopped yesterday evening. Today morning, I woke up at 3am and decided to test to get over with it.

And this is what I saw....

I am in disbelief. I am in shock! Thank you Jesus for this miracle. Yes, God is so good.... Out of all cycles, I got pregnant on this cycle when I was not taking any medications. I was not on Ovulatory Drugs. I missed my Thyroid Medication and Prenatals most of the days. I didn't take Progesterone and my other supplements. I drank coffee and tea on all days of my vacation. I drank wine a few times. I ate junk food. I was under stress. I traveled 24+ hours lifting heavy baggage all myself and still I am dumbfounded and shocked that there is gift of life in my womb. I am humbled at this miracle. I am so so unworthy Lord. I have fallen pregnant 2 cycles in a row.

Thank you Jesus my Lord!
Thank you my dearest Mother!
Thank you St. Anthony!
Thank you St. Joseph!
Thank you St. Thomas!
Thank you St. Alphonsa!
Thank you St. Stephen! 
Thank you St. Michael, Raphael, Gabriel!
Thank you St. Anne!
Thank you St. Therese!
Thank you St. Gianna!
Thank you St. Gerard!
Thank you St. Thomas Aquinas!
Thank you St. Patrick!
Thank you St. Ulrich of Augsburg, my Patron Saint for 2012. 

I need your prayers. I absolutely have no idea how far I am. It's been exactly 3 weeks/21 days since our last intercourse. So I maybe on P+20 or 19 or 18 or who knows... All I know is that God's timing is perfect in every way. I love you my little one! Please, please hang in there.

I have begun Progesterone Suppositories. I have a few more left until Monday. I need to call my dr. first thing on Monday morning. I have been hit by jetlag and have a nagging headache. Surprisingly, amidst all this turmoil, God has blessed us with his peace. He is the author of life and we know that we are not in control of anything. I am surprised that I am handling this well inspite of the light bleeding I had for 2 days. Please pray that my baby continues to grow. Thank you Jesus!  


  1. I am so happy for you! I have been thinking about you off and on while you were in India, hoping you were able to find peace, etc.

  2. Oh, I am so overjoyed!!! I will be praying hard, grow baby grow!!!!!

  3. Congratulations!!!!!!!!!! I hav been praying for you, and will continue to do so!

  4. Congratulations!! sending prayers your way!!

  5. Oh, my gosh! SO happy for you!!! =)


  6. Oh wow! I've been thinking of you and praying for your healing and wondering how your trip to India was, if you were back in the states, etc. I also wondered if you had a chance to read some of the "Love and Sorrow" book and what you thought about. What an amazing, unexpected surprise to come home to! Sending up lots and lots of prayers for this little one. Can't wait to hear what you find out after talking to your doctor. Thank you, Jesus, for another miracle in J's life!

  7. wow congratulations. That is quite a miracle.


  9. Yay!!!! Praying right now for you and your little one.

  10. Wow what a miracle! Praise God and prayers for a healthy mama and baby!

  11. Whoo hoo! Congratulations! I'll be praying for you and your baby!

  12. Fantastic news!!! Grow, baby, grow!!!!

  13. Congratulations!!! Grow baby grow!!!

  14. I am falling off my chair in joy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I love it when God surprises us during our "worst" cycles!

    Keep us posted.

    Every day! Ha!

  15. Congratulation, I am so happy for you.