Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Sometimes I Wonder

What are the odds of carrying a pregnancy to term after 1 ectopic and 1, 2, 3, 4,  5 early miscarriages? I don't want to rely on statistics but I feel so overwhelmed.

Lord, I need you to guide me. I am having a difficult time trusting my body. Fear is trying to overtake me. Fear that I may have another ectopic and that I may lose my remaining tube. Fear that I will never have a successful pregnancy.

Lord, please help me conquer this fear. I don't want to feel defeated but I need some hope to fight my body and defy the odds. I need hope to continue treatments and never give up. I really cannot make up my mind to pursue further treatments. I feel I am failing at every step. Please pray for me.

11 comments:

  1. I am so sorry you are going through this. I don't know if you've ever been treated at PPVI. Maybe it would be a good idea?

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  2. I have no idea of the statistics, but I'm sorry, and I'm praying!

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  3. Oh, girl. My heart goes out to you. I have no idea of what your future holds, but I do know that the Lord will be with you in it every step of the way. Praying for guidance and hope. Say- I keep forgetting to email you and ask...did you send me a friend request on FB? Just want to make sure it's you before I accept:-)

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  4. I wish I had the answers for you. Though, I do believe NaPro might be a good place to start. Sending many prayers and much love your way.

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  5. After my miscarriage, I felt very similiar. I was afraid my body would fail and I was afraid to even try because I couldn't handle another mc. I found St. Faustina's prayer for healing and began praying that every day. It helped me to ease my mind, maybe it can help you (assuming you don't already pray it)...

    St. Faustina's prayer for healing: "Jesus, may Your pure and healthy blood circulate in my ailing organism, and may Your pure and healthy body transform my weak body, and may a healthy and vigorous life throb within me, if it is truly Your holy will." (Diary 1089)

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  6. I wish I knew the words to comfort you, but instead I have prayers.

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  7. Thankfully we can trust in God and not our broken bodies. He heals. He is perfect. I am wondering if you have an infection causing your losses like I did. Please take a look at my history and I am happy to talk. Dr. Hilgers, using some of Dr. Toth's ideas on infection, is the reason I have two beautiful boys despite 6 diagnosis and 2 miscarriage (each one earlier than the last, which can be a sign of infection). I also had tail end brown bleeding. There is hope and help. I am praying you find answers.

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  8. Praying for you! I'm so very sorry that you've suffered so many losses. Its understandable that you have lost trust in your body. I'm praying for God to heal you and also to provide answers to your early miscarriages. I will pray that He shows you the path to take.

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  9. I am so sorry for all your losses -I can't even imagine how difficult it must be. Praying for God to give you clear direction and praying that he will heal your heart.

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  10. Please don't give up!

    And please see Dr. Joanne Kwak Kim at Rosiland Franklin University outside of Chicago. She will find out what is going on and SHE CAN HELP!!

    She is the BEST RPL doctor in the world!!

    Please email me if you would like: oldfashionedbd@gmail.com

    God bless!

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  11. So hard to know what treatmeant to pursue and for how long...praying you find your answer soon!

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