Wednesday, March 23, 2011

God has strengthened us through another Loss

Yes, God has strengthened us through another loss. I am so thankful for all your prayers. We have been strengthened in a special way and feel so much at peace.

The ultrasound on Monday revealed a thickened endometrium with no gestational sac. My ovaries looked normal and they didn't see any fluids, and so they ruled out an ectopic pregnancy. Praise be to God!

After the ultrasound, my doc confirmed our suspicions of another miscarriage due to the low levels of HCG. I am thankful to God for leading us to such a kind-hearted doctor. God bless her soul! She was full of compassion when she told us that I had miscarried. Perhaps it was her compassion which made me so emotional and I cried like a baby. I am so thankful for my DH who had come with me. He held my hands while I cried. I felt so embarrassed for crying in front of my doctor but sometimes..........

She told us that she didn't have answers and that we would need to see an Infertility Specialist to know why my body has been rejecting the fetus and not been able to sustain pregnancies. I love her because she was frank and didn't give us false hopes. I love her because she wasn't insensitive like my previous doctor who insisted that Chemical Pregnancies are very common and that we shouldn't worry. I love her because she didn't ask me to continue the miracle drug "Clomid". She wanted me to do a few blood tests for RPL and and she will be giving us the referral for an RE. Before she walked away, she said she will pray for us. How often can you hear that from your doctor? Even when I had the emergency surgery for my ectopic, neither the doctors nor the hospital staff mentioned anything about prayer.

Yesterday morning, I woke up to some dark brown bleeding. By afternoon, it had changed to Red bleeding accompanied with severe cramps. I have been offering up all my sufferings to the Sacred Heart of Jesus. My doctor had told me to expect the bleeding to start in 3-5 days but I am thankful that I didn't have to wait for more than a day.

Soon after our wedding, I told my DH that I wanted 4 children. :-) How silly of me but if only I knew what was in store for us. And now I have realized that we indeed have 4 little ones in heaven who are praying for us.

This Lent has become so much more meaningful through our sufferings. Our families and friends have been praying for us and God has definitely turned all those prayers into immense grace. We have grown closer to God through prayers and Scripture Reading. We are so much at peace and can feel God working in our lives. We were filled with despair when we had our previous losses but we have so much of hope after this loss. We are not questioning God as to why this has happened. We know that our future is secure in God's hands. We needn't worry as he has seen our minds and souls in depth.

Mother Mary, please continue interceding for us that we may never ever be separated from your beloved Son Jesus in the moments of trials and tribulations.

16 comments:

  1. I am new to your blog- I am so sorry for your loss. Your faith is inspiring. God Bless you. (((Prayers))

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  2. I am in complete awe of your strength. You absolutely inspire me with your trust and faith in God. I am so sorry to hear that this pregnancy did not work out...I know that hurt to hear again. It's amazing that you have 4 little angels...they are up in heaven playing with my little angel:) What a happy thought! I can see them now on the playgrounds of heaven!

    As for a doctor, have you ever heard of Dr. Hilgers, the creator of NaProtechnology??? He has worked wonders with many many women struggling with IF. He is the one that was finally able to figure out what was wrong with me...after I had seen a infertility specialist for a year. I would love to talk to you more about this. I think it could be really important in helping you diagnose you with what really might be going on in your body. You can read my story going back to July 2010 if you are interested. It talks about my journey with this whole NaPro experience. You can also look information up online. Anything I can do to help!

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  3. Thank you for the prayers which we need so much.

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  4. Yes, Yes.. I know God is leading me to Napro through all your blogs. I definitely need your help to learn more about NaPro. More than anything, I desire to find out what is wrong with my body and to be healed.

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  5. I'm so sorry. I've been here and no there are no words, but my heart breaks for you!

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  6. I came here via Awaiting a Child of God. Wow...your faith is inspiring. She's right though - you should definitely check out NaPro technology. Lots of us Catholic IF'ers do it! Keep the faith! The Lord will bless you!

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  7. Yes!!! Definitely go NaPro! At least contact them and see what they say. Can't hurt! Let us know if you need anything!!!

    I am so sorry for your loss - your strength is inspiring, that is for sure. Glad you are here - I hope we can all offer support!!!

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  8. You are so inspring! I am also very sorry for your losses. I have experienced one and it was the most heartbreaking thing ever, but you are right God is always there.
    I am from Mexico and find it amazing that you from India are also part of this community! It the amazing catholicism of the Church!!


    With recurrent losses there are two paths: Naprotechnology which I love (I am a patient and also a practitioner) or Reproductive Immunology. Napro has around of 80% success rate with cases of recurrent losses.

    I think to start with the very best path is Napro since it looks at everything holistically. RI is great, but many times oversees things that Napro finds. Some people combine or even go from Napro to RI after the have had a diagnosis with Napro, but there are inmunological factors-.

    I read that they have recommended the book by Dr Hilgers. Its great and if you can find a good practitioner nearby you will have a great overview of this amazing system.

    you will be in my prayers

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  9. I too want to say how sorry I am for what you are currently going through, your strength in the midst of this is inspiring. I will be praying for you that you may learn what is causing your miscarriages and that you may be healed!!!!

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  10. So, so sorry to hear about your most recent loss and your other losses. God has given you incredible strength. Praying that He sustains you through the difficult days.

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  11. So sorry for your loss, but I admire your strength! God has great things planned for you.

    I agree with the other bloggers, Napro is the way to go! I am being treated now by Dr. Hilgers at Pope Paul VI Institute here in Omaha and every single day I am thankful I called them. Napro has a great success rate plus you know they will never steer you against church teaching. My first doctor was very insensitive when it came to my faith. I am so glad I found Napro!!

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  12. I don't have words to express have thankful I am for all your prayers and support. And I am definitely going NaPro... Thank you so much for all the kind words..I am glad to be part of such a wonderful blogging community.

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  13. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you can find some answers with NaPro. I am sure you will.

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  14. Thank you for being an example of grace and faith. I am so sorry for your loss. I will add you and your family to my prayers.

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  15. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I too have 4 little angels in heaven and I am inspired by your hope, strength, and faith. Praying for you!

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  16. Just checking in on you friend. Where you able to find info on Napro?? Can I help in anyway? Let me know:) hope you are doing ok. Your in my thoughts and prayers

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