Thursday, December 29, 2011

When the waiting ends...

Yes, my waiting has come to an end. I was waiting to know what was going on. I was waiting for a big miracle from God. Nothing is impossible with God, right? After the negative HPT on Monday, I didn't give up. I continued testing and again saw another faint line that evening and the following days. So I thought maybe God is going to work a miracle with this pregnancy. I prayed and hoped that my Betas would double miraculously. I even googled for slow-rising HCG and miracle pregnancies.

I was wrong. God has better plans for me. His ways are higher than my ways. My NaPro doctor called me today to tell me that my HCG has fallen to 6. So I can stop the Progesterone and expect the bleeding to start in a few days. My doctor was feeling bad because she doesn't know what more needs to be done. This is it. My waiting has come to an end. I don't have to get prodded with needles every other day to check for Betas. And now I pray that the bleeding starts without much ado. When you know that your pregnancy has ended, there isn't much you can do but hope that you get over with the the bleeding soon. So that you can start a new cycle. A new beginning and some day maybe I will find hope to continue on this journey.

17 comments:

  1. Yes, God does have plans for you and His ways are higher than ours (see Isaiah 55:8-9). I'm so sorry the pregnancy has ended. Praying for that hope to return to you real soon.

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  2. I'm so sorry to hear this, let Christ be with you during this tough time. God bless you and your DH.

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  3. I am so so sorry, J. I am holding you and DH close in prayer.

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  4. I am so sorry. Continuing to pray for you.

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  5. So sorry for your loss, praying for you

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  6. So sorry. :( You are in my prayers.

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  7. I'm so sorry. Continuing to pray for you.

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  8. I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. I will lift you up in prayer.

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  9. I am late in reading this and so sorry for what you are going through. Hold fast to God and He will hold fast to you. You are in my prayers.

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  10. I came across your site today. God is with you in those times when you are sad and when you are angry and yes , Nothing is impossible to God

    - Please read my story of my infertility which I posted across several blogs on catholic answers forum. I think it may give you some hope.



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    with much love and support, God Bless You

    love
    Anita

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